It's a..... miracle!

The husband & I decided to keep the date of our level II ultrasound quiet.  I'm already struggling under the pressure of "it's a girl, this is your girl, I hope it's a girl, I'm praying for your girl."  The constant comments already put me in a stressed place.  Having my own little secret about when we'd get to look at our baby gave me a little pocket of happy.

So, on the down-low, husband and I went to the OBs office hoping for a clear view of a very healthy baby.



I've had tons of ultrasounds but this one was just amazing.  The baby was bouncing around like crazy at first and then calmed down.  We saw the two hemispheres of a brain.  We saw four clear chambers of a heart.  We saw functioning kidneys.  We saw lungs.  We saw a spine.  We saw bones.  We counted toes for goodness sake!  The baby even yawned while we were watching... the ultrasound tech rewound the yawn over and over.  I couldn't believe that one.

My ultrasound was at 18 weeks 6 days.  The baby is measuring 19 weeks 2 days... so pretty much exactly on schedule... weighs 10 ounces.

And... the baby is clearly a boy!  We had a view so perfect that the ultrasound tech didn't have to say it... both the husband and I called it out.  I was so relieved!  So many people have been telling me that I'd have a girl... but in my heart I felt it was a boy.  I was getting frustrated because I didn't like the idea of being so out of touch with what was going on... and everyone else around me knowing more than me about what was going on inside my own body.

Our tradition is to keep the baby's name private until he's born... and we will continue that tradition with this boy.

So, I'm pretty much half way there.  I'm still totally sick.  Coming off my nausea medicine routine means I will wake up vomiting at about 3 in the morning and it will take two days to get back to "normal."  My OB and I talked quite a bit about it and basically I'm to do what I need to do to remain functional.  I do try and take med breaks at least once a week to see if the all-day misery has passed.  I'm really looking forward to feeling like myself again.  I can be mostly normal with medicine - but there are side-effects that aren't so great and honestly, I'm just tired of the "sick" routine.  Also, I'm just tired.  Where is the 2nd trimester energy??? I need it desperately!

We are starting to talk about how we're going to move furniture around and make house changes to make room for baby 3.  I'm excited about it... but it still all seems so far away.  March is in about a million days and I'll be pregnant for all of them.